Back again. To start typing, to start writing, to spilling all my emotions onto this. Finally, I'm feeling as if I belong. I belong where I am now and where I will be for quite a while. We've gone our seperate ways but yet we still get pulled towards eachother every once in a while. And I've found other people I love. Who may just love me back. But I'll need to be patient. I've gotten good at that. Patient. Something I've had to be for a year now. But I've gotten what I want. Friends to take care of me. Best friends to love and support me. An amazing family that keeps me a happy. Maybe, just maybe, I have something to live for now.
I've found the people who love me for who I am. Who dont ask me to change just because they don't like who I am. I'm no longer hopeless. Maybe I do have a sparkling bright future ahead of me. There are ups and downs, still some small bumps that make me stumble and hesitate before moving on. But they just make me stumble not fall. Before, I used to fall face first onto the hard brick road of life which hurt a lot. Stumbling is something I know will happen a lot through out my whole life. I took a risk. I turned towards the turn that didn't seem right. But it led me to success. Yes risks can sometimes change a life. They changed mine. I've taken so many risks. They all led to happiness.
The coldness of the winter has changed into the sudden bloom of spring. A new beginning. I hold many expectations for spring. The rose that was me before has died. A new bud is blooming. A new me. Its no longer a rose. Its a Daisy. Its affection is towards a few selected people. This is the new me. The new me that waited for a very very long time to bloom. This is the new me. Accept it or leave it.