Lonely.

Hard times don't last forever right? True friendships last forever right? When I find myself snuggling into loneliness, I know nothings right. I feel alone. But I'm not alone. I have my loneliness with me. But one day my loneliness will leave me too. The day I die. I feel lonely every single day of my life. But I'm ashamed to admit that to the people who love me. Sometimes I wish I could die. Go away from this worlds cruelty. Go into a place where I was free. Free to fly! Boys? Is that was ruins it all? No. Me. I'm what ruins it all. I ruin my life as well as other peoples lives. I ruin my families life. Why did it have to be three? Why couldn't they just be happy with a daughter and a son? Why was I born? Why did it have to be me? Why couldn't I be like some random popular, rich girl who could live a happy perfect life? Why? I know. Because it was me being born. And when is my luck good? Ruin me. Finish me. Kill me. Please... I want to die. Tomorrow, today, now. GOD I'M SICK AND TIRED OF THIS DRAMA AND THESE COMPLICATIONS! KILL ME! I ruin myself. It's what I'm good at. What do I do? I die! I triumph!